{September 18, 2015}   Diary of a chaotic mind.

Even most romantic of souls, commit the most unromantic crime. This idea of pure love and yet we make lists in our head about what we want in a lover, like light brown hair and a sweet voice. A sharp mind and a soft heart, a sense of humor that gets to you, you laugh like you mean it. This and that. And it’s all bullshit. Silly, people aren’t lists. I have always wanted to be that person who makes people realize this and yet I am guilty of this crime. Very much so. I want to come across someone who is not anything like i have hoped for and show me what I didn’t even know I was looking for. All this while I thought what i wanted. I was fooling myself. Nobody really knows what they want. Not until its right in front of them.

would you be able to love me though? I would love to feel the love back, to be wanted. I recommend against it though because this feeling could heat your chest and bring the earth to flames. Silly, SALLY! I am a curious person.

Don’t fall in love with a curious person. I’ll want…want to know who you are and where you come from. How your family is. I’ll look at all your pictures and read all your poems. I’ll ask you to explode when you are angry and cry your heart out when you are hurt. I’ll ask you what it means when you lift your eyebrow.

I’ll want to know your favorite food, color, person. And I’ll ask you why. I’ll buy the camera you like, I’ll start listening to your favorite band. I wouldn’t be satisfied, I would want to know what makes you uncomfortable, what weighs on your mind, what makes you cry. I’ll want to know what i did exactly, what I did to make you love me. I hope you have photogenic memory. “what time was it?” “what did I do?” “How did you feel?” I WOULD WANT TO UNBUTTON YOUR SHIRT AND READ EVERY SCAR, EVERY MARK, EVERY CURVE, EVERY THOUGHT, EVERY EXTREMITIES, EVERY INCH BEYOND THE SURFACE. But if you still fall in love with this curious person, will you forgive me for being something that will eventually die? Somethings that we love will kill us, but aren’t we dying anyway?

Dear future lover,

It’s funny to think we are strangers . You are in a different room, a different house, different country, a different continent perhaps. Thinking about things that won’t even cross my mind.
It’s so funny to think, you are out there… Laughing, dreaming, looking at the moon, wishing upon the same stars, I look upon everyday.
It’s funny to think you will love me one day.
And  today you have no idea who I am.
ps:- Know that when you do, I will  take your breath away.


{February 3, 2013}   A nonperishable dream.

Most easiest and most popular activity any human do is DREAMING!! There are two ways of dreaming 1) like really dreaming 2) intending to dream.!! Image
The really dreaming type is not harmful and doesn’t create any anxiousness and curiosity to make it happen. But the intending to dream type is very painful and nonperishable  sometimes. Usually people experiencing the 2nd type do face anxiety and a little awkward feeling to make it happen. They’re unable to do so as they lack resources like time  and support, they may also be under some kind of pressure and may be worried about the fact that if they take such a step then what will other say???
           But this second type ,until it is fulfilled, make us feel like as if you’re crushed with jumbo size road roller. But all we have to do is keep patient.!! Even though its not your cup of tea. And just be grateful that you are still surviving. And be happy because that lets you live more. And if you live more you will have more time to think about your second category of dream and not only think but to make it happen. My fingers are crossed… Cross yours too and try. who knows what the next moment will bring you to!!

                                       – TADA –

{November 7, 2012}   dreams and goals

Dreams are something which you see with closed eyes..!! whereas goals are something you see to achieve when you are awake. People make mistakes in differentiating the both.At-least that’s what i know. Dream is the specific word for things you see while you’re sleeping. Dreams could make you see of what you never thought of, real unexpected types. Goals are something you know that what it will be to achieve it and what exactly it is. Many of my known tell me that” if you see someone to your close ,in your dreams it means that they are missing you”-And i find this statement similar to the hiccups one thing. Its REALLY easy to see a dream.. but very difficult to see a goal. Yeah! and when people say with open eyes that its my dream.. it means that they’re sleeping. As dreams aren’t to be fulfilled but the wishes are, so i guess they again mistaken dream with another word wishes. All i wanted to say is people should not get wrong with the usage of word “dream”.

et cetera