{December 25, 2015}   Temptation and repulsion

To put them aside, to shove them off
I ignore, atleast try to, these feelings and
I cannot.

It’s an inner battle between
ARGH’s and AWW’s
between what I desire and I am sickened by
And then it breaks, cravings overruns what
I am resisting and descends a great
darkness upon a COLD WINTER’s EVE
……(but then…)

Pain is all that your GUILT BEARS,
you are sickened with what you have become,
as love to my mind……
Weak is your soul! temptations are too strong!
Pain eludes you! Adrnaline is strong and weakens power of guilt.
(As for me…)

I am numb and dumbfounded
as the VICIOUS cycle repeats itself
Mush and hate
temptation and repulsion.


{July 29, 2015}   A poem that mocks !

As sure as colors are delightful,

as promising a mother’s love is to her child,

as pleasing is the rain to the earth

the only constant with SALLY is her unstable mind!!!

Driven by the teenage fanatics,

the women that grows in her day by day,

mocked by the expanding world,

independent VIEW , changing peers & hormones raging

gay as happiest being is she at moments,

while others are low and gloomy!!

Yes,her new acquires wises mocks her ‘leaving’ innosence

yes she is terrified by the laughter that doesn’t

indicate joy anymore,

for she is a mere poem that mocks itself.!!

{January 5, 2014}   Escaping!!


{October 13, 2013}   QUALITY OF BEST FRIEND -PART 2/5

Part 2: Building Trusting and Loyalty


Trust each other. You may find it hard in life and think that it is impossible to keep your best friend happy. To be a good best friend really doesn’t take much. All you have to do really is make sure you can both trust each other about really important matters. Don’t try to trick or use your friend to your advantage; you need to make them know they can trust you.

  • Realize that your best friend may have other friends. Trust that you’re really important to him or her and let your best friend have a social life outside of you. Love between friends is never jealous.
    • To prevent loneliness from biting you, have a small circle of friends. That way, if one friend is unavailable or he/she turns out to be your enemy, you’ll have other friends to support you. It’s good to know as many people as possible, but only have a few close friends that you tell your secrets to.
  • Don’t keep secrets. Be open about what’s going on in your life and what you hear about other people. If you don’t want to talk about something, don’t bring it up in the first place. If your best friend insists on hearing and you still don’t want to talk about it, say: “You know you’re my best friend; if I were going to tell anybody, it would be you. But I’m just not comfortable talking about it with anyone. I promise you’ll be the first to know when I’m ready talk, okay?”
  • Know that you’ll probably go through rough patches. Bear in mind though that sometimes you will have to give them some space so that they can have time alone and think things through. Being a best friend means understanding when a little bit of time alone is a good thing.

    Be trustworthy. If they tell you a secret, make sure to keep it. Never tell someone a secret your friend wanted you to keep. Don’t even leak it out to someone you know you can trust. A secret is a secret.

    • Know the difference between a harmless secret and a dangerous secret. Dangerous secrets not only threaten your friend’s life, but it can also affect you as well. Despite the fact that your friend may not want people to know about her secret, it’s best to tell your parents or a trusted adult about this. Keep in mind that your friend might have told you her secret because she is tired of keeping it to herself and she is silently asking for help.
    • Keep your word. If you say you’re going to do something, do it. Follow through with it. You know what they say: Talk is cheap. Let your best friend know that if you say you’re going to do something, you don’t ever back away.
    • Don’t gossip about your best friend. Don’t say anything that might turn into a rumor. For example, if they had a crush on a cute guy/girl,they’d probably be embarrassed if you told someone. Make sure you know your best friend is okay with it if you do tell other people. Things like this are sometimes hard to do, but if you want a solid friendship you have to be willing to do them.

      Be loyal. Stick up for your friend when they need it. Respect those times when they need to stick up for themselves. Trust your friend and allow yourself to be vulnerable with them. Through ups, downs, and disagreements, you’ll still try to work things out and be their friend, truly demonstrating your loyalty.

      • Say “no” when you need to while still being their friend. A friend of integrity is of great value. Tell them respectfully when you think they’re wrong. The journey of life is about learning from your mistakes, not always needing to be right.
      • If you don’t learn to say “no” to your friend, it’ll hurt your friendship more than improve it. Not only may your friend grow too reliant on you, but you’ll also feel strained and angry.

      When you two fight, try to work things out so everyone is happy. Don’t say mean things, whether it is right in their face or through a text. Apologize, but understand that it may take some time to get over what’s happened. Let them cool down and talk to you when they are ready.

      • Never leave the problem alone and pretend it doesn’t exist. It will not fade, and it will eventually pop up again later. It’s best to solve the problem while it’s small before it grows bigger and more painful.
      • If you two need help solving your problems, ask your parents or a trusted adult to help.

      Come through in the clutch. When your friend really needs something done, or a favor, be there for them. Help out. Think of how much they’d appreciate it. You never know when you’ll be stuck between a rock and a hard place and might need someone (a good friend, maybe?) to bail you out.


      Stick up for your best friend. Sitting and watching your best friend get picked on or teased is definitely not going to earn you a brownie badge!! If your best friend is getting seriously bullied and you’re scared you’ll get hurt if you get involved, then get help from a teacher or parents. If you can stick up for them without getting harmed yourself, make sure you do so. Imagine how you would feel if you were being picked on and a friend told everyone to shut up and clear off.

    • If you or your friend consistently has problems with another person, try not to be childish or immature about it. Don’t prank them or embarrass them; sadly, that will only make things worse. Tell an adult what’s happening, or simply ignore them. People hate being ignored and eventually lose interest in you.

{July 22, 2013}   Being nostalgic..

This is my senior year at high school which means my last year of school. When we gave farewell party to our seniors i did not feel for a moment as if I am going to miss these days or they are ever going to end. But as soon as the party ended a very awkward feeling went through me. I did not realize then what it was. Since the days are passing I started feeling nostalgic. As in I already started missing my good happy days at school. How every student knows me and I get to be “ms. popular”. Am I going to get familiar atmosphere at my college. [obviously not :(]. People say that when they say they are going to miss school they don’t mean the studies but friends, but i am going to miss both. Since here it was fun learning rather than burden learning. OMG I am going to cry. :'(.

{April 28, 2013}   i’m just a kid

really i am!!! 😛

et cetera